Caspar Justin Matthew Rose

artist, writer + adventurer

 

CasparJMRose

I Could Never Be

Frail, frail,

Frail,

Feeble,

Left without resolve,

Running barefoot,

Feeling,

Raining,

Laughing,

Crying,

Wet,

Wetter,

It’s better this way,

I could never be,

I can not,

I won't become,

It's clear what,

 

Coddled,

Muffled,

Tears,

Fears,

Shouting,

So much to say,

Yet no words remain,

Spoken,

My token,

A sketch on my heart,

 

Jumping,

Running,

Thundering,

Pounding,

Splashing,

Landing,

I could never be,

I could not,

 

Barefoot,

Wet,

My hair,

My umbrella,

My curtain,

My tears,

 

Clawing,

Clowning,

My heart,

Resounding,

Outstanding,

I couldn’t,

I haven’t the time,

 

Lifting,

Lifting,

Drifting,

 

Evaporating,

My heat,

My feet,

They run,

They stamp,

They splash,

They do what I could not,

 

Frail,

So frail,

I will not,

I chose,

It was chosen,

I never knew,

But did I know,

I couldn’t,

I shouldn’t,

I could never be,

 

Happy,

Happy,

So happy with this,

I shouldn’t,

Plain,

Playful,

I have to,

I will,

I’ll run,

I’ll run so,

So,

I’ll go,

I have to,

My clothes,

Wet,

Wetter,

It’s better this way,

 

Collapse,

I could never,

I can’t,

So many more steps,

Running,

Barefoot,

The furthest step,

The furthest step is the ocean,

Keep going,

Just,

Just,

Go on,

 

Shout,

Laugh,

Shake,

Pout,

Cry,

If I must,

Then give me this,

To die without saying,

I was,

Unlucky,

I couldn’t ever be,

More than I am,

 

I could never be,

I won’t ever be,

More,

More,

More,

 

I, I.

Chapter One: Awakening

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